I’m not in a state of mind to continue.on December 2, 2012 at 5:02 am
Everything is so cold… dull. There are so many things that I’m sick and tired of having to deal with. I haven’t been getting any time to myself. Any time that I get is spent having to do things for others. Work is a whole other story. I’m in a position where my knowledge is suppose to help fix things. I shouldn’t have to use my knowledge to clean up after other agents that are suppose to know these things.
At home, the only time I have to myself is when the misses is sleeping. But even that isn’t my time. I have a 4 year old daughter who needs to be watched. I work overnights so my sleeping schedule has kind of turned everything on it’s side. My wife and I sleep normally are early morning til about between noonish and 3, depending on when we get to sleep. My little girl doesn’t get up til about 10 am. She knows how to turn on the TV and use the Wii for Netflix. She sits and watches her kids’ shows. When it comes to my days off, I normally shift my sleep to where I actually sleep at night. So that means when the my wife is sleeping in the morning, I’m the one that my daughter goes to when she needs a drink or a snack even though she is capable of it herself. With that, I really don’t have any time to myself to just go brain dead for a while.
I took a break from this thought and was able to settle down. I’m not as fired up about it as before. I’m still concerned about the intelligence of the agents that are working here. My level of expertise is no where near the level of the Technicians when I started, and I’m considered as “one of the go to guys” for issues. Society in general has me a bit scared for our future. People are more concerned about material goods and how they can be better then the next guy. Whatever happened to the time where people were happy with what they got and were grateful for it. Oh well, I’m done with this thought. Post ya later.